Hi, everyone.
It has been about eight months since last time I logged on this blog. It seems a bit strange to me as I have a pulse to write something today. I guess it always will be a case when I feel down.
Today is my three years anniversary in UK since I was landed in Edinburgh in 2006. Look back these three years, my life was changed significantly - got married, graduated from Heriot -Watt and working with a career which I wished.
I have nothing to complain, I have to say. I am a lucky person. But, why I am feeling so sad today - lonely staying at home for a week, failed ST2 exam or the pressure from the coming CA2 exam. I feel so tired from every inches of my body and soul. Just like the TV program's conversation, I feel I am isolated and live with my tiredness. All my pain comse from a single one source -English which I started to learn properly when I was 34 the time I arrived in this country.
I have been over-spending my energy in these three years. I am working and studying hard. Though my lovely husband always encourage me "you have made huge progress on your English" I still feel it is hard for me to perform well in my exam preparation, actual exams and in my work. My speed is so slow . Everyday, 24 hours are definitely not enough for me I have so many things need to do. I want to be good, I want to pass all exams at the first try, I want to ............ !! Who can help me? I am so tired!!!
I know I must carry on, continue to work hard and I won't be beaten down. No pain no gain, sometimes although there are a lot of pain already, we still can't see any signs of gain. Keep trying, I believe eventually you will get you deserve!!! Only care what you have done. After you have tried your best then leave it and don't ask for anything for return. Eventually, there is a day you will be surprised by yourself. I hope I can have a such elegant soul.
It has been about eight months since last time I logged on this blog. It seems a bit strange to me as I have a pulse to write something today. I guess it always will be a case when I feel down.
Today is my three years anniversary in UK since I was landed in Edinburgh in 2006. Look back these three years, my life was changed significantly - got married, graduated from Heriot -Watt and working with a career which I wished.
I have nothing to complain, I have to say. I am a lucky person. But, why I am feeling so sad today - lonely staying at home for a week, failed ST2 exam or the pressure from the coming CA2 exam. I feel so tired from every inches of my body and soul. Just like the TV program's conversation, I feel I am isolated and live with my tiredness. All my pain comse from a single one source -English which I started to learn properly when I was 34 the time I arrived in this country.
I have been over-spending my energy in these three years. I am working and studying hard. Though my lovely husband always encourage me "you have made huge progress on your English" I still feel it is hard for me to perform well in my exam preparation, actual exams and in my work. My speed is so slow . Everyday, 24 hours are definitely not enough for me I have so many things need to do. I want to be good, I want to pass all exams at the first try, I want to ............ !! Who can help me? I am so tired!!!
I know I must carry on, continue to work hard and I won't be beaten down. No pain no gain, sometimes although there are a lot of pain already, we still can't see any signs of gain. Keep trying, I believe eventually you will get you deserve!!! Only care what you have done. After you have tried your best then leave it and don't ask for anything for return. Eventually, there is a day you will be surprised by yourself. I hope I can have a such elegant soul.
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